Welcome to my world
Right now you're discovering what it's like to live in the world in which I live with my family, this world that has become my world and that you didn't know, by chance.
Right now, you're living in fear:
Fear of catching a virus.
Fear of being sick.
Fear of complications requiring hospitalization.
Fear of dying.
Right now, you're learning to live one day at a time:
Not knowing if you'll be allowed out of the house tomorrow.
Will you still be able to get to work?
Normal shopping?
Will we have new restrictive measures or not?
Will you or a loved one be ill?
How's it going?
Right now, you're isolating yourself:
You limit meetings and contacts.
You keep your distance, to protect yourself and others.
Right now, you're discovering :
What it is: disinfectant.
What it's like to wear a mask for hours on end.
How to wash your hands and why it's important.
The look people give you when you put on a mask.
Right now, you understand what I've been going through for months and years:
I live in fear that the treatments won't work.
Fear that the disease will win.
I don't dare go out because the viruses are lurking.
Contact is limited to those very close to us, to protect us.
Disinfectant bottles are in every bag and bathroom.
Masks are a great ally in protecting us.
Right now, you understand what I've been going through for months and years:
I live in fear that the treatments won't work.
Fear that the disease will win.
I don't dare go out because the viruses are lurking.
Contact is limited to those very close to us, to protect us.
Disinfectant bottles are in every bag and bathroom.
Masks are a great ally in protecting us.
Right now, with this global pandemic just catastrophic, my fears are even greater than usual because :
Another virus is on the loose, and it's extremely dangerous for my child.
I'm afraid there will be a shortage of medicines for my child and all the others, as the world's eyes are riveted on the search for a cure for the coronavirus.
I have to isolate my child even more to protect him.
I have to find a way to get disinfectant and masks despite the shortage.
But for me it's no longer hypothetical, it's a certainty:
My child is ill, fighting to live, not to die of the cancer he's fighting.
Yes, I'm afraid because death, which lurks every day, plays with hope and I have to live with it.
So while I wouldn't wish what I'm going through on anyone, I'd still like to say: Welcome to my world.
Every 3 minutes, around the world, a child dies of cancer, in silence, for lack of treatment. Please don't forget them, and continue to support Zoé4life and our fight for children with cancer.
Natalie Guignard-Nardin
Zoé's mom
who died of cancer after a 5-year battle.
